Whatever you wrote here are a mixture of what I had gone through and am going through. There will be a way out Carrie.
Do one thing at a time. You are not giving up. You are just picking up one thing at a time and set the pace right again.
Christmas is around the corner and it is getting very cold over at my place with rain for these two weeks. The end of the year with such holiday season always been a hopeful one for many people. As long as there is hope, there is a way.