Maxwell, whatever your ranted, rant it and get rest. Then get up. Keep moving. Achieve your dreams. One by one. I had my worse moments and I am going through the shit craps moments right now I even think of ways I just don't want to wake up to the next day. It is exhausting and tiring. I want my dreams. i want to be a university student. I want to have the honor to graduate. I want to earn side hustle. I want to sell my books. Yet everything I tried I halted, failed or all these just did not work. AND people around me tried to plan my life for me. I don't get the chance to live my life. Honestly, men came to me for money. While I am jobless, no men came to propose to me. Life is a bitch. It is some days like that. But I want to run the race and try and try again, even if it is not to proof to the life or the people that I can make it, at least for myself. Hang on there. Get rested. Get up. Move. Keep moving.