I'm reading a book by Pastor Joseph Prince. In his book, he mentioned about underdogs. That God will always look for the people who are kinda hidden, low profile, not as great a personality... God brings them out and up to shine in life differently from the others. I read other articles you wrote. Well...You do have control over your happiness. Take a step at a time. I'm figuring out my life one by one after a lot of set-back too.