I had not written for almost a week, dear friend. I am going through the down episode not only trying to heal from the virus symptoms, but while managing my late family's Will. It took the energy off from me that I miss my time reading Qur'an and meditate. It is like a routine of coming home and eat medication and knock off to sleep drowsy. Woke up the next day and repeat the same thing again. These shall soon come to a pass, and so is your situation. It will come to a pass. Hang on. It is all that we have.